a blog.. about not blogging!

by beargirl1

i haven't really been blogging that much lately-- if at all.

OK. i won't count those small blogs like, this, this, this.. oh, and this (I HAVE NO SHAME FOR THE LAST ONE!). i haven't written a real blog in a long time. that's not because i have nothing to write about. hell, i have plenty to write about. it's not because i don't have time to write blogs. needless to say, i have all the time in the world to do things. i just don't feel like it. i have like.. three blogs that i was supposed to write a long time ago. i'll have to accept the fact that i will never get around to writing them.

trust me, i don't even feel like writing this very blog. at this moment that i am writing this, i don't even know what the blog is going to be about. i'm thinking as i type, but i'm thinking more of what i'm going to write next, more than what i should even be blogging about. it's not a very good idea, but i'm doing it anyway. hopefully by the next paragraph, i'll have a good idea of what i'm going to be writing about.

..you know what? i shouldn't even be writing this blog! i even told people in my status update that i wouldn't be writing a blog! do i really want people to think i'm a liar?!

proof in case i deny it i typed "liar" in google images but i wrote "iar" by mistake. i went to page 20 or something and found this image. relevance! well, when you think about it. i've been a liar all along! remember that blog i was doing on Suck my Dick or Die? i didn't even write a (proper) follow up to that blog! not to mention i was supposed to write a blog on Rapelay! it seemed that people were excited for it.. but i didn't write it.. :( h-hey, wait! i didn't write it..yet. if you check the blog (linked above), it says that i'll have a write-up on it at some point! does that mean i still have a chance to redeem myself?!

hopefully. i'll probably write something on it when i finally figure out how to reach the ending. that's where the game totally lost me. allow me to explain it; you rape three girls, you get some cutscene then it just gives you an option to rape all the girls. it's fucking weird, and i have no idea how to progress. i'm certain that i didn't beat it because i know how it ends, and i didn't see anything from the ending in that cutscene.

there seems to be no way to progress. it just gives me options to rape all the girls i've raped so far. it's kind of weird. the game tells me it's training and plus, getting into like, a 6 man gang rape is effin' messed up. if the game play was.. fun, this part wouldn't be so bad. however, the game play for me is pretty much unbearable. it's pretty funny, though because you can adjust the speed of how fast you rape and it goes up to some unhuman speeds. that's probably the most amusing part of the game for me by far.

what the hell do i do, now? I DON'T WANT TO RAPE ANYMORE!!

OK, i should probably stop talking about a rape game, because it's weird as hell to talk about that game. it's probably why i won't ever end up writing a full-length blog about it. eh.. well, i've written about weirder games so this, in reality shouldn't really be a problem for me. anyhow, consider that your brief rapelay writeup until further notice (and by that, i mean just putting up a blog about it the second i complete the game...which will come without notice.)

i have just realized how far i have come from writing about not writing. if you're still reading this, i'll tell you that this is NOT an attempt at humor. i've learned from attempting to be funny and i'll be sure not to do it again. hell, i should probably stop writing this before i get out of hand. i should probably play some Shatter, or something.

oh, speaking of Shatter.. Shatter is pretty good. wait, no. 'pretty good' doesn't do it justice. more like pretty fucking amazing. i mean, brick breaking games are cool, but the soundtrack is pretty mind blowing. i've been exposed to Rez and Shatter in the past month or so. both games have some of the best music i have ever heard. er, anyway, Shatter's brick breaking is pretty frustrating for me. i'm always distracted by the beautiful graphics or the amazing music to keep focuses on what's actually going on in the game. that usually results me in going insane, or something. Shatter is still great, though. the soundtrack pricing is a little odd (9.99 for the soundtrack when you can get all the music and a brick breaking game for 7.99) i would buy it for sure when i get access to a credit card. hell, at that price, it's a steal.

while we're on the subject of music games, i also got Beat Hazard (which was gifted by awesome GB user Ossi! thank you again!) on Steam during the insane Steam sale. that game made my eyes explode, but that game, too is pretty crazy. i had to bust out my electro music collection for it, and that game works pretty well with it (though i can't imagine playing any Speedcore music on it). it's also crazy difficult. i always die like, a minute into a song because of crashing into stuff. could it be that i just suck at games in general? it's possible, and i wouldn't deny it. i'd like to play it more, but i don't think i'll play it at night ever again...ESPECIALLY WITH THE LIGHTS OUT! i can't imagine how Newten did that stuff without going blind.

anyway, i think that's enough for me. i've written way more than i should of have..

you know, i just realized what i just wrote in the span of an hour or so. i shouldn't even be allowed to touch another keyboard ever again. anyway, i think i am done here. thanks for reading! ^^

note: i don't spell check or check for grammatical errors after writing these blogs so there's a slight chance of having a lot of errors! that's simply because i'm too lazy to spell check and all that nonsense.. and i don't trust Google Chrome.