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@CaptainCody said:

@Dagbiker said:

I have Aspergers, Social Phobia, and am on meds for depression. Im not lying about that ether. I think the reason I have Social phobia is because I cant tell what people are emoting, so I dont know if they like what I am saying, Pissed about what I am saying, or even if they like me at all.

You make way more sense now that I know that.

On a side note. Depression is not an illness (Unless you are of the few, yes few, who are chemically imbalanced). Everyone gets depressed, I just stopped being a crybaby and did something about it.

Everyone gets sad and down. And just so you're clear, 1 in 3 people will end up with depression in their lives, it is an illness and should be treated as such.

Our old flat was haunted, I used to see the ghosts of the two girls that lived (and died) in our flat in the screen of our TV. Whether this was real or a figment of an overstretched child's imagination, who knows - but thanks to that incident (along with two other ones I won't go into) I now have something called spectrophobia, which sucks.

@m1a1da83 said:

Ahh, S.C.P we meet again.

It's like the internet wants me to throw my computer out of the window screaming, "NOPE! NOPE!"

@RedCricketChase: I seriously don't know what I'd have done without my family these past few months, good support is so valuable when you're at your most desperate. I'm glad to hear that things turned round for you and you benefited from it all.

@RadixNegative2: The worst thing anyone could ever say to you is 'what have you got to be anxious/depressed/angry about?' because it's a very destructive and simple question which makes no sense. You could be the richest person in the world with everything you could ever want, doing the job you want and in love with a family - and you could still suffer from anxiety and social phobia. Mental illness isn't biased, it can happen to anyone at anytime. I think by acknowledging that you have this condition and you're trying to deal with it in your own way - although seeing a doctor is the best place to start, there are places on the internet you can go for advice and maybe even other sufferers to talk to about how you all feel. If self-help is the way you want to go, look online for books on how to cope with it, as well as free material on mental health sites. I hope you find a way to help yourself.

@falserelic: I completely agree with you, and if I was in your position I'd feel exactly the same way. I feel for her and her family, I hope they've found some peace, as well as your family too. Once again I'm really sorry to hear what she went through and what you've had to go through.

@RIDEBIRD said:

@Seppli: Honestly you give off all the serial killer vibes and seem incredibly infatuated with yourself, so I don't think I want to know how you live. Your comments about recreational drug use and working out were incredibly rude and uneducated. It's just pretty much never as simple as that.

Just leave the thread if you're just going to be an asshole to people that are obviously in pain and in the need to share their experiences with others. That sort of seemed to be your intent however, so yeah, that's fucked up.

I thought I was the only one picking up on the serial killer vibes...

@RedCricketChase: I'm glad you're feeling better now, it's such a relief to come out the other side :)

@me3639 said:

Its called life get over it and start living.

Why didn't I try this before? You've solved all my problems! [/sarcasm] I hope you never have to deal with a debilitating mental illness.

@Akrid: I second that, I would rather be ill from something out of my control than voluntarily being such a horrible person.

@ArtisanBreads: I would honestly suggest getting to the doctor and talking through how you feel and your options. You don't have to take medication, up until I was 18 I went through different talking therapies - I was in counselling for 18 months through my initial diagnosis and it helped me to recover and get back to my normal life. Even after my dad died I said no to medication, which should give you some idea of how bad I got to have to accept medication. If you need any advice, you can always message me - I'm always here for a chat.

@avidwriter: I think you might need to read up further on depression. Feeling sad and down is completely different to depression, which is an illness. It's like telling someone with a broken arm to stop being ridiculous and just get up and walk. How ridiculous does that sound? Saying to someone with depression that they just need to 'deal with it' has the exact same effect.

@falserelic: Oh god, I'm so so sorry. I don't know what else to say other than that, I'm really sorry.

@falserelic: He wasn't physically abusive - he screwed with my head, which if you read the mental health thread, you'd understand why he hurt me so much. I don't really want to go into it further, but abuse isn't always about what you can see.

Is your cousin still with the girlfriend, or did she get away?

I'm 22 and I've been in three long-term relationships. I met my first boyfriend at 14 and it was really good until we both went to college and he turned into a massive dick so that ended. I then got with a guy from college when I was 17, got engaged to him at 18 - which then caused the relationship to spiral into hell, thanks to him being abusive, manipulative and horrible. I broke up with him after he tried to get rid of my mom. I then got with my boyfriend Rich at 19, and it'll be three years in November for us. He's a wonderful man, I don't know what I'd do without him.

Basically, I've been in relationships since I was 14, and if I was single I'd probably be the worst single person in the world as I'm so used to sharing my life with someone else.

@ShaggE: My depression has given me the best writing and art I could ever hope for - and while I can look back and say the experience strengthened me, at the time I have no way of 'owning' it, because it controls me completely and I'm helpless until I get the right help for it.